wow sounds dramatic @_@ well i actually got it quite similiar, even tho im working hard ( but still living with parents, guess im a lil leech ). none of my familly members/friends actually understand why i love Macross so much, some say its just an anime ( the ones that watch anime ) and others that its childish ( im 23 lol ), but its like dreaming. most of us for sure would like to have 1/1 VF-1 in their garden lool. it's expensive hobby i agree ( if i'd like to buy it in one of our polish figure shops, i'd probably pay like 400$ but thanks to my friend living in sapporo i got it for 220$~ )
i dont feel like im wasting money. one day i'll show Macross to my kids and maybe they'll love it as much as i do @_@
cheers~!